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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-09-21 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ She can't get enough β€” of him, this, air β€” and she can't stop pursuing that desire for more, their passion feeding off each other in a loop, steadily building, running away with the last shreds of control and reason. She is fully and completely lost in him, drunk on his attention and his kisses, moaning into his mouth, chasing his tongue with hers, drawing him closer and closer still and somehow it's never close enough. Not yet. Beverly arches up into him when he pulls himself away (barely even an inch, but she can't stand the distance), kissing at the corner of his mouth, his jawline, the fluttering pulse in his throat like she's trying to distract and encourage as he reaches between them.

The head of his cock slipping over her slick entrance is enough to make her shudder, exhaling sharply against his neck as her eyes drift closed, hand tightening on his ass. Her hips twitch, clit still hypersensitive, her whispers of yeah and that's it indistinct against his dewy skin, dissolving into a low moan as he slides into her β€” slowly, almost agonisingly so, her eyes rolling back at the tight stretch around him, savouring the fullness as his hips press flush into the cradle of hers. Oh, oh, oh, fuck. Her breath comes in shallow pants now as she tries to keep herself still, to adjust, to remember, to keep herself from coming undone too quickly, too soon.

But God, it's never felt this good. Amazing what wanting and being wanted can do, how sharp it makes their shared pleasure, how much it makes her burn for him and everything he's giving her. The sweep of his hand brings her back to him first, and the squeeze to hers anchors her, eyes drifting open to meet his even as their foreheads rest against each other. There is something exquisitely intimate about this, something that makes her heart beat harder, and it's only the slow grind of his hips that forces her to break that eye contact with a soft gasp, lashes fluttering.

She loves how her name sounds on his lips just as much as baby does. ]


You're incredible. [ Soft, airy, chin tipping just enough to kiss him again, sucking on his lower lip as she draws away. Her ankles hook around his thighs, hand drifting up his back now to curl at the nape of his neck as if to say Stay, right here, pressed close in every way; her hips roll up to his with a soft moan, aching for him to β€” ] Fuck me, sweetheart, [ whispered against the shell of his ear now, ] nice and slow, come on.
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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-09-23 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Romance was barely β€” rarely β€” part of any relationship she had in the past. Not that Beverly recognised it at the time with her understanding of affection so mangled by time, distance, and magic; if there was something missing, a coldness where she'd been told to expect warmth, she found the fault in herself or thought all stories were simply that: stories. But there is romance in this, so overwhelming, so palpable in the gasp of space between them, that Beverly wonders how she'd gone decades without being enveloped in its glow. The way Dean is looking at her from above (so close that she could count his lashes if it were day), how his eyes sketch over her like he's trying to memorise every freckle, how electricity sparks through her whenever their gazes meet β€” she can feel it, something heady and poignant and more real than the pale shades of passion she thought she knew before.

She could never look, before. Always turned her face away, shut her eyes, rode it out. But all Beverly wants to do now is look, memorise angle and curve and flicker of his brows, the exact shade of his eyes in the light β€” can't bear the thought of missing a second, of not relishing each moment that they have this. Even as he dips his head to mouth kisses over her neck and her eyes slide shut, the afterimage remains; her head arches a little, just enough to bare her throat to his wandering lips, her voice breaking on a soft ah at the scrape of teeth, his breath hot at her ear. God, huskiness to his voice, the way it curls around his earnest request, how he punctuates it with a delicious roll of his hips. She's far gone enough that even if the words don't register, the tone does, and she's already moaning his name into the kiss as she chases him for another, and another. ]


Dean β€” [ More air than sound, her hand finally sliding free of his grip only so it can join the other in cupping his face, bringing them forehead to forehead, nose to nose. She kisses him again, drawing away only for his name to break on a moan, hitching on nothing until the rest can follow. ] You feel so good, never thought it could feel this good. [ She arches with each thrust of his hips, her breath coming in ragged gasps, brow furrowed and eyes shut to savour the sharp pleasure when the angle hits just so, tightening around him with a delicate whimper of approval. ] Oh, God β€” Dean, Dean, just like that β€”

[ Fuck, it feels incredible. Can't think, can barely catch her breath, her fingers curling and uncurling in his hair as they fall into their rhythm, rocking together, her hips rolling to meet his thrusts when she's aching for him to fuck her a little faster β€” yeah, yeah, keep going β€” and her legs wrap around him to get him deeper still, her eyes drifting open to meet his again, gaze hazy with desire but locked on his, hands cradling his face and unable to look away until the snap of his hips makes her, lashes flutttering. ]

Fuck, [ on a whimper, ] so – so good, [ You are, she means, but she's already fraying and the words are lost. Moaned against his lips now, between kisses: ] Close, baby.
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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-09-24 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ God, he's so good for her, to her, the way he's looking at her and holding her like she's the only person in the world; she could lose herself in the intensity of his focus, his passion β€” hell, she does. Everything else falls away, the only thing that matters is Dean in front of her, above her, right here and as close as she's ever yearned for him to be, consumed by his kisses, wrapped up in his arms, trading gasping breaths like they're drowning and they're all the oxygen the other needs. Because fuck, she does need him, and he's so generous, attentive, Jesus Christ, he's giving her everything she's ever missed and everything she never knew she'd gone without to begin with.

Their kisses are hurried, careless now as they hurtle towards the edge together, peppered with moans of encouragement, whimpered names, ragged pleas for that barely even make it into the charged air between them. Beverly's fingers curl into the sides of his hair, holding him right there, foreheads pressed tight together and skin burning and thrumming where they meet, dewy with exertion as nice and slow goes out the window for more, faster, good, yes. This close she can feel the way his muscles go taut, the rhythm of his thrusts picking up, chasing the release he's resisted all night, and one hand releases his hair so she can cup his flushed cheek, whisper in a hot rush against his open mouth as her name dissolves into a ragged groan. ]


Perfect. [ She kisses him as he rides through it, never lingering for long because God, the sounds falling from his parted lips, the thrill the proof of his pleasure sends through her and straight between her thighs, squeezing him tight like she can take him deeper this way, draw out his orgasm as long as she can. The pad of her thumb sweeps over his bottom lip as she draws back to look at him, drink in the twist in his expression, fuck, he's so β€” ] Perfect, Dean, that's it, that's right, honey.

[ She's so caught up in this, in him, dragged into the undertow of the kiss that follows that she doesn't even notice the slide of his hand until his fingers find her clit again β€” she bucks up into him with a startled moan, the sound tapering off into a soft, high whine when the pleasure starts to skirt the edge of too much, a sharpness to it she can't even breathe through; she writhes beneath him, pinned by his hips, her own jerking like she's trying to grind up into him or draw away when the tension builds to the point of snapping, her heels digging into the bed now. ]

B-baby, [ riding on a gasp, back arching. She forces her eyes open (when did they fall closed?) to look at him again, noses brushing and hair clinging with sweat at her brow, her neck, as they move together. Gorgeous, he says, and she repeats it in a whisper, because he is too, not just her, two halves of a whole. And then β€” and then β€” ] Yeah, yeah, Dea... Deaβ€”

[ Can't even say his name, can't catch her breath enough to do it, because suddenly she's coming with a broken cry, almost a sob or a prayer or both, arching up into him and curling around him β€” squeezing β€” as her orgasm slams into her. She holds his gaze as long as she can, lashes at half-mast when the first wave hits, wanting him to see what he does to her; his fingers don't stop, his hips don't stop, and her eyes roll back as her climax hits its peak, her head thrown back as she shatters apart, her moans racheting higher and higher until she's suspended into silence.

She doesn't know how long she drifts there, doesn't know when she sags bonelessly into the mattress in the comedown; all she knows is how overwhelmed and lightheaded she feels, aftershocks still lighting up her nerves and making her shiver and tremble under him, breath stuttering. No words; not yet. But somehow, blindly, she still tips up to him in search of his lips. Can't sustain it long, not when she's trying to catch her breath, but she can't find her voice to say his name, either: so she says it with a kiss. ]
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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-09-25 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ They could lie here like this until tomorrow afternoon and Beverly would be absolutely fine with that. It feels almost luxurious to be sprawled out in her bed together, bodies tangled and pressed flush, hearts beating in time with each other (for each other), and the only sounds filling the silence are their ragged breaths and the distant hum of New York City beyond her wide windows β€” not that she's even entirely aware of where she is right now, still floating in the haze of post-coital bliss and feeling like she'll never come back down again. Because this is a first for her, Dean's right about that; she meant it when she said she never thought it could feel this good (sex, but also just being with someone). It feels like her skin is almost too sensitive, her nerves are thrumming, she's still quivering in the afterglow, and all that's holding her together are his arms. There's no stopping the soft groan β€” of protest, exertion? β€” that scrapes out of her when Dean eases out and off, immediately missing the warm weight of him.

It's overwhelming, the flood of emotions and sensations that rushes in to fill the void left by her climax. Her breath hitches like she's close to tears, but the rawness of it all is softened by endorphins and the sweetness of his kiss. And kissing him, well, that's easy, the easiest thing she's ever done; it's only been a few short hours but already it's a reflex woven into her DNA, the way she turns to him like a flower to the sun, chasing his lips for another and another, each one soft and lingering. She doesn't have the presence of mind to do or say much else, still blissed out with static and the desire to be near him the only thing left with crystal clarity β€” but she can do this: kiss him until he world comes slowly back into focus.

And it does in increments, tingling across her body like pins-and-needles coming back to life. She's first aware of the brush of his fingers across her face (even if it came before the kisses β€” and maybe her sense of time is still a little hazy, beyond curses and magic), the tenderness of the gesture making her heart twist in some funny way. She thinks she can feel him looking at her, smiling at her, and her eyes finally drift open to see it for herself and β€” oh. Oh, there he is, so close she could reach up and caress his face if she thought her arm would cooperate with the impulse. God, he's beautiful. The thought strikes her without warning and melts away just as suddenly. She can't articulate it, so she smiles instead, a lazy, beatific thing. ]


Hi, [ she whispers back to his hey, voice airy and distracted. She blinks slowly at him, the question landing gently but still taking a beat to process it, and after a delay, she shakes her head once. It's not really an answer that holds any weight; she should get cleaned up too, maybe drink some water, something, but that all seems like too much effort. She just wants to lie here with him.

Eventually, her hand does lift to touch him, whatever part she can reach β€” his hand, arm, cheek β€” like she can anchor him to her for a few more moments. He might resist kissing her one more time but she won't, closing the scant distance between them with a simple tip of her head. Finally, necessity (and the cooling sweat on her skin) wins out and she draws away to mumble, ]
Through the closet. [ Does that make sense? She tries again on a breathy laugh: ] Bathroom.

[ Jesus, what he does to her. She feels like jello. ]
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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-09-26 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ Don't miss me too much, he teases, but it's easier said than done when they spent the better part of the evening wrapped up in each others' arms, the closest they've ever been in the months they've known each other, longed for each other. After spending so long wanting and finally having, the slightest bit of distance is difficult to bear β€” him shifting from above her to alongside her, no longer pressed flush; now him sliding from her bed and leaving her cold beyond the late November night, her fingers curling into the lingering warmth left by his touch.

She's thinking the same as she watches him walk down the short corridor towards her bathroom (gaze drifting over his broad shoulders and frankly great ass): how the fuck is she supposed to say goodbye to him tomorrow? (Even with her half-dozen date ideas waiting for them when the job is done.) How is she supposed to kiss him on the threshold of her apartment, on the sidewalk outside her building, and watch the Impala drive out of the city? It wouldn't be the first time and their friendship has survived the distance before; hell, the foundations are as strong as they are because of the distance. But β€” don't miss me too much. Easier said than done. She already does.

But that's for tomorrow and for a few days from now. Tonight she's content, settled under the covers and basking in the afterglow, turning her head just enough to admire Dean from afar, silhouetted by the warmth of the bathroom light. So much about this has been new and this is no different β€” she's used to being the one dragging herself out of bed for the clean up, every step as inelegant as the act that came before. A chore, (just like everything else about her marriage), a tool to placate an angry man. It feels indulgent to stay right where she is for once, savouring every gentle moment of her comedown without a twinge of guilt or shame; neither has a place here and never has, not with him. She's never felt more relaxed β€” or safe. But that's Dean. He's been safe since the moment they met, eyes locked in her foyer with Tom's shadow looming over her shoulder. (I got you penetrating the fear.) It's knowing that when she comes to, it'll be with him at her side. (I got you piercing through the passion.)

Her eyes drift open again at the sound of her name, the mattress dipping under his weight as he rejoins her. A washcloth and a pair of underwear, the offer buoyed by his laughter and echoed by her own. (I got you thrumming under both.) It's so goddamn thoughtful, she thinks her heart might burst from such a simple kindness. Beverly breathes in, feels steadier for it β€” stomach fluttering when their fingers brush during the hand off β€” then smiles back at the quip he tacks on at the end. ]


Yet. [ Whether it's a joke or not, the offer is sincere if he wants it to be. (Safe. That's what they are.) ] Can make whatever you like. [ A beat, like she's willing herself to move again; her arm lifts and she lays the hot washcloth against the slope of her neck, groaning softly at how good that feels against her buzzing skin. ] Later β€” oh my god, that's so nice. [ Softly, with feeling, ] Thank you.

[ She lifts the comforter and wipes herself down anywhere his mouth lingered for long, north to south, soothing the points where he might have left marks behind, folding and flipping the washcloth over just as it dips between her thighs. It's a nice recap, honestly, shivering a little at the memory β€” or maybe that's how sensitive she still feels down there. (Yeah, no, she's not getting up any time soon.) Beverly pushes herself up on her elbow with some effort and squints across the room for aim before flinging the washcloth into the hamper. ]

Ha, [ she laughs when she makes the shot, elbow slipping a half-second later and sending her sprawling back on the bed with an audible oof; she's still laughing, still riding that high, looking back at Dean like, Did you see that? ] Gave myself fifty-fifty on making that, y'know, [ she says as she wriggles into her underwear. ] Still kinda feel like jello.

[ It's a compliment. She lets it hang between them, warm and effervescent with teasing, and then Beverly rolls onto her side to be closer to him, expression softening the moment her hand reconnects with his waist. God, she could get caught up in gazing at him for hours. They've known each other for a while now, but it feels like she's seeing him for the first time; he seems softer, somehow, worry eased from his brow and replaced by the crinkles at the corners of his eyes brought on by what can only be fondness.

She doesn't even realise she's reflecting it back at him, her voice sweet and soft as she murmurs, ]
You good, honey?
Edited 2020-09-27 01:35 (UTC)
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[personal profile] retraverse 2020-10-09 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's been a long time since she's basked in the afterglow of anything. She figures she'd be a broken record by now if she said as much but it's hard to shake the feeling that so much of tonight has been new, a first; and even though she knows that, it still takes her by surprise. If it were anyone else, these moments after might feel awkward β€” the pair of them stripped bare in every literal and figurative way, having crossed a line they can't come back from. But Dean is safe, always has been, and their friendship was built on that foundation from the start. It hasn't wavered since. If anything, she's never felt more certain in her life β€” of this, him, choosing him. This happened because they both wanted it; mutual, reciprocal, unconditional. (Not like before where she was just a means to an end.)

He's right β€” there's something great about being with someone fully. It's such an intoxicating feeling, Bev still feels lightheaded with it, helpless to do much else but smile when he answers her, gratified by it. Her eyes fall closed for a heartbeat when he touches her, the gesture so delicate it's like he's handling a soap bubble β€” like he's not sure she's really in front of him, like she might disappear. His fingers rest on her neck and it doesn't even occur to her to flinch, the glowing affection for him washing out old reflexes formed by fear. (Safe, safe, safe. She never wants him to stop touching her. She'd feel a little unmoored without this anchor point; but even without, he's still her harbour.)

You're incredible lands differently now that they aren't lost in each others' passionate embrace. It's as honest now as it was then, but something about it being offered so simply instead of gasped between their hungry kisses makes her blush deeper now; her eyes blink open again to look at him in the lamplight, pleased and flattered and delighted. (Maybe a little self-conscious. There's a flicker of old anxiety, wondering if she'd done enough for him, but then he says awesome and that worry goes quiet.) But her laugh is as warm as ever, bubbling free without shame. ]


Thank you? [ God, look at him. He's just lying there, looking at her like she's holding the universe together, and she thinks her heart might burst. She almost can't take it. Almost. (She almost can't get enough.) She grins, bright and playful. ] You're pretty awesome yourself, Winchester. Actually, I think the word is β€” mindblowing.

[ It's teasingly said, but she means it. How can she find the words to convey what this meant? What he means? She doesn't want to ruin the moment by burdening it with too much expectation, but there's no denying there's something there, something that goes beyond tonight. She knows he can feel it too. And she knows the best and only way forward is one step at a time β€” together. God, she wants nothing more than to explore this together.

Beverly studies him for a moment, curled up on her side and legs tangled with his under the covers. They're close, but not close enough. ]


C'mere, [ she murmurs, voice still buoyant with immeasurable fondness, as she leans up to kiss him. Words are hard, but she can do justice to half of them with this; it's chaste, but no less tender because of it, the press of their lips soft and lingering. When she breaks away, she doesn't go far, her nose brushing his as she whispers against him, ] You should stay.

[ Here. The night. With me. It's almost a question, almost a request. And it's entirely up to him. ]
Edited 2020-10-10 00:59 (UTC)